Sep. 12th, 2004
08:35 pm - stop the insanity
Weight: I dunno
Cigarettes: gave them up OVER a month ago
Stress out factor: HIGH
Ok I'm beginning to sress about this whole college thing! Not the bad kind of stress, the good kind, like when you're beginning to take off in an airplane and you have absolutley no idea what will occur on the flight and can only hope you dont crash. I really hope I don't become too carried away and have to end up coming back here. Dont get me wrong I love the people here and actually...god forbid I say this...I actually kind of like this town...except for the complete and utter boringness of it. However! I need more out of life or at least a different look on things which im not even sure if I am going to get since I will only be an hour away.
Tuesday is my last day at the theater. I am really going to miss it, it was the best first job ever. And I hate the thought of saying goodbye to everybody there. I hate goodbyes anyways though, but this is even worse than saying goodbye to the people I went to school with...that could also be because my over half of my best friends are going to be on the same floor as me at OSU too though. I have talked to my roomate and I am sooo excited she seems really cool...not lesbionic, or bitchy, or fashionably clueless THANK GOD! Not to sound ridiculous or shallow or anything but I am very relieved about these three factors.
Jul. 20th, 2004
# of cigarettes: 0
Amount of money on hand: $11
Amount of money spent: who knows
# of days until NYC: 17
I'm beginning to think I'm an insomniac. Maybe it's just to much caffeine. Yesterday I went shopping with my mom for my dad's birthday present. BLAH! every store we went in she pointed out something that I could use for my college dorm room...Hello! I still have TWO months I have a feeling she will soon be driving me insane with this which is a HORRIBLE feeling. Anyways we bought him something on everyone's birthday wish list...a wet/dry vaccuum. I mean eww! Why would someone want that as a birthday present? It's a cleaning utensil. Is that what happens when you get old? You have bought absolutley everything you would ever want and decide to begin asking for objects in which to clean the carpet? To each his own I guess.
The night before I went to work...a lovely night spent in the box with Cosmopolitan and a Mary Higgins Clark book. I don't even know what it's called after awhile they are all the same. Then I went to Goldstar with Megan it was yummy after I dropped her off at her car Tracy was dropped off at mine because the guys were going to play playstation 2 AGAIN. The poor girl was hungry and do you know what food places are open in Wilmington past 11? Not many. So the search for food ended and we ended up driving around town and sitting in the park having some major girl talk which was fun because she had no clue how to go about it...I knew hanging around only boys for so long could warp someones mind but now I have proof! Anyways once the guys finished We met up with Zach and because there are so little options of things to do at 1 in the morning we went to the lions den. I had been in a store like this in France but it was all in French (duh) and OMG that is all I have to say. We got back into town around 2:30 and went to Krogers for food and I was home by 3:15. Much fun.
Jul. 18th, 2004
02:50 pm - not important
# of cigarettes smoked: 0 (YEAH!)
amount of money on hand: $30
amount of money spent yesterday: $24.21 (BLAH!)
Days until NYC: 19
YAY! I'm setting this up Bridget Jones style. I've decided I should use this more that way when im old I can look back and recount my younger days because there is no way I am going to longhand all this shit.
Yesterday I worked until 8 then came home, changed then went to meet Courtney at UDF for ice cream. We were good, ordered ice cream then went to the sitting area and Sarah and Zach came to meet us. Later on we're just laughing having a good time talking about how soon we'll be out of this hell hole knows as WILMINGTON when the obese blonde lady told us we had to leave. What a BITCH, but I guess I'd be bitter too if I was a 40 year old spinster who made a living by scooping ice cream. ANYWAYS then Courtney and I went to rent Sex and the City season 5 then on to Wal-Mart (woo hoo). Then on the way back to my house her van was invaded by a HUGE bug! And I am talking HUGE it kept flying at me...uggh, thankfully that little visit only lasted a short while as he then decided to go freak out another car. We got back to my house around 11 and Tracy, Zach, Travis, and Jake came over so the boys could play playstation 2 on "the big screen" while us girls had some major girl talk over a lovely game of SORRY! Ok I am completley aware that playing a board game on a Saturday night may be considered pathetic but what can you do when you live in a town where the only thing opened past 9 are the movies and restaurants and Wal Mart?. Oh well it was fun, with a highlight of Zach trying to set Jakes leg hair on fire with hairspray and a lighter.
On a different note I would like to say I have COMPLETLEY blown my no fast food rule since I've had it now 3 days in a row...DAMNIT! Oh well at least it was worth a shot.
May. 29th, 2004
10:35 pm - it never ends
Do people find it amusing to have graduation parties all on the same day? BLAH! I was party hopping forever except for the few hours at my cousins where I was hired on as photographer (haha)I hope those shots turn out ok. I have realized that the annoying questions of family members never end. for example for the last 2 years it has been "Where are you going to college"? and "What do you want to study"? which I thought would drive me crazy...but NO thats not where it ends and today I recieved a glimpse at my future questions when i picked up my little one year old cousin Christian and automatically was asked when was I "Going to find a man and have one of those"? EWW! I mean I've been out of high school for what one day???? Then another uncle proceeded to discuss with me how I was the only graduate of the family in my age range who didn't already have a future spouse picked out while in high school.
(thx Zach Lynsee Leslie and Cheri :P) OOPS! What can I say I'm a procrastinator and wouldnt have it any other way. But the whole thing is a viscious cycle really...first it starts out innocently with the whole "where are you going to college" "what are you going to study" and when you know the answer to that its "when are you going to get a boyfriend" (or girlfriend if you're a guy)and when you get one of those its "When are you getting married" and after that "when are you going to have a baby" and after that what happens? YOU become the annoying question asker and pass the virus on to a whole new generation!
May. 28th, 2004
09:19 pm - Ah how time goes on
Well it's official i've successfully graduated from high school. Well maybe not tremendously successful, but its all the same. It was really weird, after the ceremony I looked at a girl beside me (who unsurprisingly was dressed just as I was, black gown black cap) and realized I will never see this girl again...which was kinda sad until I realized that I never knew her to begin with! I mean honestly I didnt know some of these people existed let alone were in the same school as I was.
Anyways...I was able to say goodbye to my friends, which really wasn't "goodbye" goodbye because I know I'll see them this summer. Awww the summer! the last one before embarking upon the real world. Is OSU considered the real world? I'll have to look into that. Oh well I'm off to the graduation partys...(practicing for next year)My dad told me to "open one for him" haha shh! don't tell mama!
Mar. 20th, 2004
Cattel 16 Factor Test Results
Warmth |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Intellect ||||||||||||||| 42%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Aggressiveness |||||||||||| 34%
Liveliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 42%
Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 34%
Abstractness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Introversion ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Anxiety ||||||||| 26%
Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Independence ||||||||||||||| 50%
Perfectionism ||||||||||||||| 46%
Tension ||||||||| 30%
Jan. 31st, 2004
11:50 pm - dont read this
OMG!!!! Alisha and I just found out that the record penis size is 18 INCHES!!!! WTF!? How does that even work???? Can he sit down? Poor guy i mean ive heard bigger is better but isnt that a bit much? would it even work right... ewwww!!!!!!! It'd be like an elephants or a horses...deeply disturbing.